It has been one of those years, and I'm not talking about since January. For some reason in my mind, the end of this August is the significant end of a year's time - my first in New Zealand. As eager as I was to get here, I sure did wrestle with being here once I landed, and God has certainly had me on the mat more than a few times in the past 12 months!
Amazing to think that if I had only surrendered at the beginning I might be further along, but as they say, "hind sight is 20/20" and there is no use pining over what could have been. I am looking forward to seeing what the active side of surrender looks like as I once again lay my life at God's feet and ask Him to empty me of myself and fill me with Jesus.
One thing that I have come to realize is that I cannot expect big things of God if I am not willing to get serious about my end of things and do the daily things I am responsible for. No more slacking off.
Dear Lord, I need help! On my own, I'm no good...lazy...selfish...grumpy...disorganized. Please show me what can happen when I lean on You and do what is right. May the next 12 months be a continued testimony of God's faithfulness in my life. Thank You for slow and repeated starts. Please keep me moving forward.
